Tafseer Of Surah Maryam – Day 09

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We were covering the passage yesterday, which makes reference to

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predicament of Madame rhodiola Wanda, where she's this young woman, and she's approached by a man. And at that time, what is her reaction of course, we saw her reaction in it number 18, that she immediately seeks refuge with a law. And she in fact, in fact, she in

she challenges that man that is approaching her that if you have any level of God consciousness, if you have any level of taqwa, then you're going to back off, then you're going to step away, then you're not going to, you know, violate me or you're not going to invade my privacy or my personal space in any way, shape, or form. Now, I talked about this yesterday how, and there are many, many different quotes of the scholars as well to move assume that they say that this is that the proof that establishes that mme was a chest pure woman, she was a chest pure woman, and that this is transpiring way this is happening before the birth of HRT solid. So it's almost like it's it's been

established. Now it's a part of history. This is a woman that is extremely chat, she is modest, and she preserved herself dignity or respect, and her modesty. We then saw that the angel actually then at that point in time, reveals who he truly is that he is a messenger. He is a courier, he is an angel sent by Allah. And I explained how the scholars here this is gibreel Ali Salam. And we also saw who Hannah, the in is number 17. Allah refers to him as rohana, which is gibreel Ali Salam nicknamed roar. And he says that I have been sent with a gift for you and that gift is you are going to be having a very, very pure hearted, a very clean hearted, noble son.

She, of course, and I in number 20 expresses the astonishment which is only natural, but at the same time, now that you realize that she's conversing with an angel from Allah, there's that there's a natural desire than any human being in opposition would have that I want to talk to them. I want to get to know more I want this conversation to continue. So she says, I know your cannoli hula, how is it possible for me to be having a son?

When I'm young sesame Bhatia, when in fact I'm not married, I have not experienced marital relations. I do not have a husband. I do not have a spouse. Well, I'm a Cuba Korean and I explained all the linguistic nuances involved with that, while I'm talking about the Indian and separately, in very, very strong terms and tone, and that's how the Quran refers to extra marital premarital relations, any type of fornication or adultery, that it causes a cause any complete rebellion. It causes it, it calls it a crossing the the social line and breaking all types of social order, because it spreads promiscuity, which brings about so many other evils and vanity and all these

things start to pop up in society when this type of an evil evil becomes very, very common. So she says, Well, I'm uncle Bobby, and and I have never been sinful. I've never done wrong, meaning I haven't indulged in that type of illicit behavior. I've not had any type of relationships that are outside of marriage. That's out of the question. And I also explain what I'm a coup. There's the omission of the noon that normally is there, according so she's trying to say that I have not had any type, that this type of behavior has never existed in my life, just like

the noon is no longer in existence. So that's indicative of the fact how she absolutely had nothing of that type of behavior in her life. We then reached number 20, where the angel responds to medium he's

says Karla ketonic colic adeleke All right, he said just like that. That because alika

All right, and now here's Incas Allah kasali ki pala Cara Lee Ji, that just like that. That's how things work. And it's gala tea, because the address here is muddy up. And the previous one it was academia, the address he was male masculine, so it was karateka. Here it's got leaky because it is feminine. the addressee is feminine.

Garlic Aliki color of buki, your Lord, your master has said, who are layyah Hagen? What as you said, he said that this is very easy for me. This is very easy. This is not a problem. This is basically in common English. The way I can explain this is that it means this requires no effort on my part. This requires no effort on my part, this doesn't even require me to break a sweat. Like we say, I don't even have to break a sweat to do that. It's like that type of an expression in Arabic. Who i neva Hagen. That's not a problem. That's no big deal, who are Lega Hagen when he ninjalah, who is utterly nasty, when he Nigella who is utterly nasty, and we have made him she's referring to the

angel is referring to the son to the child, Isa alayhi salam. And we have made him Isaiah, Isaiah. All right, a sign of vary, and I explained the meaning of the word I think maybe it was during the Arabic class, but I have refers to a sign that cannot be ignored, a sign that cannot be overlooked a sign that stares you in the face, a sign that it the only way that you do not see this sign is you intentionally don't want to see the sign. That's the type of sign I'm talking about. All right, like a billboard. Like something huge, that just stares you in the face. And the second implication of the word is in the Arabic languages, it refers to a sign that leads you to something that points to

something it's assigned, that leads you to something that points to something. Right. So it's another analogy I like to use often is like it's like the highway sign. So it's a big old sign. All right, that is well lit, that glows in the dark. And then it's got its directly it's pointing you in the direction of an exit or a highway. And so it's right there when you're driving. You can't help but see it right there looming looming in front of you. And that's what this refers to. That's what I is. Alright, so I attended us when he Nigella, who and so that we could make him

a sign that type of an unavoidable, unmistakable, blatant, apparent open sign. All right, but who is this sign? So the sign leads you somewhere? Where does this lead you? It leads you to a law. It leads you to seeing the greatness of a larger understanding who I love truly is. Now who is this sign meant for Lena See? Venus, for mankind, for humanity for people. So it's meant for people. This will be a lesson a reminder to people of who Allah is

what I met Amina, and they Mercy from Us. So this is a sign for the people and the mercy for from us

Wakanda and Rama phobia.

And this is an issue. This is an affair that has already been decided. It has been decided. All right now, the word moko de maccabean. All right, this comes from the root word acaba. This comes from the root word of God. And the word Kaaba in the Arabic language is different than Fossella, or other terms of the similar meaning. So it doesn't just simply mean to decide something. The English translation I like to use this decree. And what that basically refers to, to break to explain the meaning of law refers to when somebody makes a decision. And not just they make the decision, but they have the authority. They have the power, they have the backing to influence to implement that

decision. That's why a judge is called a copy. Because when the judge issues his decision, he has a police force that will go out there and will implement his decision will make you follow his decree his decision. And that's what coda refers to. So mccallion comes from that route, that it's been done. It's been decided not to just been decided by somebody that some Council on something some Advisory Council has decided and they recommend that this what you do No, no, no, this is coming straight down from the ultimate authority. And this is going to be implemented, this is going to be backed up. All right, the person who's made this the one who has made this decision has the

authority to implement it, to enforce it, to enforce it. What kind of

On Macedonia, and this is, this is an issue that's already been decided.

It's been decided. Now I'd like to explain a few things here in this ayah. So first of all, it's very obvious here.

What Allah subhana wa Tada, who Allah Hagen, we talked about this term it appeared before as well, when the Nadia, Allah who is telling us and we, we are going to make him, we are going to make him a sign. Now if you look at the word is on its left in the very open common form, with the common form the Nikita forum can QID one of the effects of it is what we call a tenant war, a turn of war, which means to create diversity, to create versatility in the meaning so that this one word to be referring to a number of different things, or a number of different types of things. So when we say I attend, it's a sign, but it's going to be a different type of sign for different people. So it's a

sign for people who choose to disbelieve, people who disbelieve that they need to believe in the power of Allah. But at the same time, it's a sign for the people who will begin to deify this child that is going to come into existence, that what they really need to pay attention to is that the existence and the miraculous birth of this child should actually he's a sign, he's like a, he's like a sign on the highway. He is not the objective himself. He is not the destination himself. But rather, he is a sign that gives you directions on how to reach your objective and your destination. And your objective in your destination is a law.

And he's a means to that end. He's a means to that end.

All right, he's a very dignified, very revered, very respected means to that end, I don't mean to belittle or diminish the status of a profit. But nevertheless, it's a means to an end.

All right, and so it's assigned for different types of people in different ways. Similarly, it says what mattered, what mattered. And it is a mercy from Us. Again, here you have the nakina form the common forum at 10. We're at Turner work, all right. And how is it a mercy it will manifest as a mercy for different people in different ways. One of the ways that it is a mercy, and this is something very important. And that is, there are people who are willing to believe in the law, whether or not a miracle exists. There are people who believe in a law, regardless of the Marchesa, regardless of the miracle, you understand, there are some people that believe in the validity of the

message that are so in tune, so in touch with their fitrah,

with their fitrah, their inner, natural, inherent leaning toward something,

they are so in tune with their fits at all, they are so clean hearted, they are so focused on that which is good and beneficial, that even if a Prophet did not have a miracle, they will be willing to believe just on the content of the message. They don't need to be wowed.

They don't need they don't need shock and awe.

They're willing to believe in the message regardless.

And so that, that that that element exists amongst people, but when a miracle does arrive, like the birth of a family history,

like the Quran, the column of Allah,

like the staff of Musa alayhis salaam, that is a mercy upon those people. It's a mercy upon those people. Because you have those believers, those firm believers,

the ones that are there by the side of the Prophet, the ones that stick to the message, they stick with the truth.

And they take a pounding, they take it, they take a beating.

And they continue to stand there firm, solid, strong.

And then when something like this happens,

it's like,

finally getting a win.

It's finally getting a win.

And so it's it's like a mercy upon them. So while it is something that leaves the opponents, the opposition, the critics and leaves them completely silent. It baffles them, it astounds them, and it leaves some it leads some people to believe it serves as a relief for some people as well. It serves as a moment of celebration and rejoice for some people who have believed the entire time even when the miracles weren't there.

But the miracle just comes to like, like almost as, as a gift for these people a mercy for these people that you've stuck it through here. You've stuck by the side of the messenger through thick and thin

and even when you didn't have an unbelievable mind blowing miracle 2.2 to refer to you still stuck through

You still stuck with the messenger, this is for you. This is a mercy for you. So what I mean, so that's one form of it being a mercy. The other form of it being a mercy is obviously, when that miracle does arrive, there's another category of people who have kind of been toeing the line, who see the sensibility in the message, but are still hesitant for whatever reason. And this type of an arrival of a miracle. It's just a little bit of a push that they need to

go ahead and accept the message. And so it's obviously a mercy for them, because made that miracle was the straw that broke the camel's back. That miracle was the last little push that they needed, the last little bit of motivation that they needed. So it's a mercy for different people in different ways. What I met Amina, well, Canada, I'm from Macedonia. So Miriam is being told all this by the way, let's let's not forget about that. All right, Maria, was being told all of this,

that this child, the birth of the child, will be a sign,

a reminder, something that will lead people to a law and secondly, it will be a mercy. So it's a mercy for you from us, this is a mercy for that child, but mercy for so many other people beyond that, and people of the ilk people of the quality people of the caliber and the cut of medium Anderson Italia Salaam, obviously are

they are they they are pleased, they are satisfied, they are definitely

they are pleased to hear that this is a form of mercy for them. But these are this, these are very, very special types of people, people that would put others well being before their own people that care about all of humanity and the fate of all of humanity. So when they hear that they could be a means for mercy and guidance and for all of mankind. Sign me up, where do I sign up? They're the type of people that say, Where do I sign up. And so that was something that was very, very important. Like Allah tells us in the Quran, instead of to the MBR rajala webinar I attended al amin, Allah says that we made her and her son and I assigned for all people regardless of when and

where they have ever existed. Allah says in another, I have the Quran insulted. Milan is number 50, which is an amalgam oma who is a and we have made the son of Miriam Isa and his mother, a sign for people.

And then finally, here at the end, Allah says, Wakanda, I'm going to MCC of the year we're kind of on Brahmacharya. Now, this is something very interesting. Now this is kind of the motivational part of it. As if that wasn't motivation Enough already. But to remove any type of hesitation, any type of a thought from the mind of medium. The angel is now delivering the news that this is something that's already been decreed. It's been written, done deal.

This is happening. Allah has decreed the plan is in motion. The wheels are turning, things are happening. as we speak. It's a done deal. It's happening. Meaning now it's time to come to terms with this. There's no more time to beat around the bush. There's no more time to dilly dally to worry about this to worry about that. times here now. It's go time.

This is go time now we're never so this is it. What kind of America decided this is expressed in a different way. Incidentally, I'm Ron and I in number seven, I am number 47. Unless huska baleka delicate Allahu yahoogroup omega

that does just like that. Allah subhanaw taala creates whatever he wills, He that Baba Imran when he decreed something we need to size and decrease something for innama hula hoop on favicon. All he's got to say is B and it is

B and it is meaning it's done.

requires nothing. We're done. We're going now what kind of I'm going to do

now from here, another passage starts it's still the same story continuing. But now we get to the actual occurrence the actual incidents now. Allah subhanaw taala says, For hammer led to fantasma that Rahim mccannon casaya for hemella to the fire here means So then,

finally

homiletical she carried him

meaning she's carrying the child now to carrying the son she's pregnant. For homiletical she's pregnant now with the child. She's carrying the child

funded by that to be

funded by that we we've already come across this word into that referring to money and before. So now again, it means that she

secluded herself she separated herself. But hear him says she secluded herself. She separated herself. Be he be he. Now this uses the the preposition. The letter by here is like a preposition in classical Arabic. All right, it's kind of like a preposition. Now what it means is the BI is very versatile. It has a dozen different meanings. What it means here is by suburbia. This is by suburbia. This is the bar of causation. This is the bar, which explains the reason for something happening. fund deposits, be he she separated herself because of him

due to the child, as a consequence of the child

as a consequence of the child.

Now, that's very interesting. What does that mean? What's that alluding to?

Now, there's a number of factors here, there's a number of things that come into consideration number one, is obviously, the decency. The modesty of Medea is a contributing factor here

that this does consider everything, consider everything we've talked about up to this point.

Medium I spoke very briefly, about the parents of medium which are spoken about earlier on. You can tell me in one word, what kind of people were the parents of medium?

Good people, righteous people, pious people? Give a good people.

Okay. And then who is the mentor and the teacher of Madame

sechellia? What is his job description?

prophet of Allah.

He's a prophet of Allah.

What does Miriam do? What is your full time occupation? What does she do?

She serves serves the dean. She's taking care of the place of worship, she worships herself. She studies with an abbey, she teaches other people. She's a full time worker of the dean.

I want you to take all these factors into consideration. She has such a strong, powerful relationship with the law, that while she's still a student, while she's still very young, you know the story. She's eating fruits out of season.

Divine leave fruit is being delivered to her out of season. So she's somebody with a very strong connection to a law, her she comes from a good home and a good family or parents are pious, righteous people, her Jesus student of a prophet, she serves the house of worship full time.

After all of this, she's pregnant.

without marriage,

she's pregnant without having being married.

You can imagine you can imagine how difficult that is for her to deal with. Yes, it's miraculous. Yes, it's a divine injunction. It's a divine command. She's the vessel of a miracle. She has communicated with an angel. She has, she has no doubt, she's got full conviction. She's a firm believer, she knows that she's out there in the line of fire, and she's willing to be out there.

If it will be the means of guidance for generations to come. She's okay with it. But it doesn't change the fact that somebody that comes from such a dignified background, and somebody that is so full of modesty.

Somebody that embodies that personifies modesty, decency, self dignity, self respect. You can imagine what a trial It must have been for her,

to walk around,

to have to deal with people. You know, and just, again, trying to keep things trying to not be provocative, but keep things very general. But also, we also got to deal with the story, we got to sink our teeth into this, this this situation. This is a real human being. And the initial stages of expecting a child.

You know, it's not always as a parent or as visible, that somebody is expecting a child. And then there are little adjustments you can make, how you dress, how you interact, the little, little things, little adjustments you can make to conceal the fact.

But what happens as the pregnancy progresses, it becomes very, very apparent and obvious. It gets to the point where you can hide it anymore.

And now it's starting to get to that point.

And her modesty, her decency.

It just won't allow her to deal with this onslaught that is bound to come bounce happen of Oh my god, what did you do?

What did you do? And everybody wants a juicy little details and everybody's gossiping and everyone's pointing fingers and they're not just pointing fingers at our

They're pointing fingers at Who?

and her family who are good people. They never did nothing wrong. They're good people. They're not just pointing fingers at her and her family, but they're also pointing a finger at her teacher. Who's a prophet. Yeah, that's one of his students. Check it out. Mashallah. Good student speech says a lot for the teacher, right? That's what we say, isn't it?

They're not just pointing fingers at her parents and our teacher. But when I add rubella, some people will even be will stoop low enough to point fingers were

at Allah at the dean at the mustard.

Yeah, she's a very pious person.

Yeah, these movies, they're all just like this. You ever heard that? before? We talk like this. We say these types of things.

Be very careful about that. people's actions speak for themselves.

Are this budget versus stuff? This is or this is? It's all Hanky Panky.

mozzie was it? Hanky Panky. No, I'm very serious. We talk like this.

And so she's she's worried about this. She's conscious of this. And so there's two things here. While there's a warning, we should never engage in this type of talk.

that not only are we gossiping and backbiting and probably more likely than not slandering.

But at the same time, we are then humiliating other people, we are disgracing other people, we are violating the honoring the dignity of other people. The Prophet alayhi salaatu wa Salaam swears by Allah swears by Allah points at the Kaaba and says that the dignity the honor of a Muslim is more sacred than even you are.

What would we do to somebody that showed up at Mecca Shara taharah, Mata GABA, and started to do something inappropriate to it? What would we do to him? Can you imagine what we would do.

But we do that to people every single day.

So be very careful about that type of behavior. And on the other side, on the flip side, it's an it's another powerful reminder, if we have been blessed by Allah, to be in the position,

where we

represent the deen some capacity or another, whether it be because we're frequently measured going, or because we're involved with the community on the masjid, or we are, you know, a theme in our community, or we give weekly Holocaust or lessons, whatever it is,

if we are representatives of the dean, in any capacity, know that there is a certain amounts, there's always going to be people out there that are going to relate anything out anything that we do wrong, they're not just going to limited to us, they're not just going to implicate us, they will implicate the entire team, they will even talk of a loss.

There are some people like that.

So that should make us very conscious of our actions. Because this is another trick of shavon. Like, hey, it's my personal life, I can do whatever I want to.

That's something else. That's there somewhere else. That's when I do that I do that. When I'm giving a clip I'm giving a quick buck.

When I'm doing lectures, I'm doing lectures is my personal life.

That means there's a lacking in my own practice of the dean. If I see a separation between the two, I got a problem that I got to fix. And realize that if I don't fix this problem, the longer that I keep this situation up.

Then it I'm only damaging the reputation of the dean amongst the people, the dean will be fine.

But I will be held accountable by a law for how I represented the dean.

So always be very, very careful about that. So fun to be here. Now. Look at the dignity the honor of medium. She says no, no, no, no, no. I'm not going to turn my parents. I'm not going to turn my teacher than to be of a law, the masjid that my relationship with the law into fodder for the community fodder for gossip. I'm not gonna do that. So she leaves she separates herself. She secludes herself. She takes a little vacation. She goes away for a little bit fun Tabitha to be here because of the child.

mccannon Cassian

makkonen possesion. Where did she separate herself to? Where did she go? mccannon possesion. All right. Now McCann means a place. Kathleen is a description of the place.

Arabic students

most often safer. Thank you. All right, most event safer, Mashallah. All right. So it's describing the place. It's describing

To place now What does the word Aussie yen mean? It comes from the root word, which means for something to be very, very far for something to be the most distant, something to be the farthest corner of something. So it's a very relative term. It basically means the farthest corner of something like it's using Satya seen what? Excuse me, what Jara Raja Raja lumen aka Sal Medina T. And a man came from the farthest part of the city, from the farthest reaches of the town.

from the suburbs.

So a man came from the farthest part of town. So that's what the word Cassia means. But here Cassian is being used in its hyperbolic in its exaggerated form. So it means a very, very far place. So she basically went where there were no people, completely isolated herself.

And again, I want you to feel the human side of the story, I made a lot of effort to emphasize that within zecharia, alehissalaam story that preceded this, I want you to feel the human side of the story. So I've already talked about who my dm is, where she's coming from, and already how difficult this is, she stepped up to the line.

She willingly accepted this, this, this great task and responsibility and honor and dignity really. But I still want you to understand how that doesn't mean that it's easy. It's difficult. Now, on top of that, can you imagine a young woman just kind of going out into the middle of nowhere? Can you imagine how frightening that must have been? Can you imagine how alone She must have felt. And typically when a woman is expecting,

what usually do we do at that time.

Like when when when, when somebody like a wife, who maybe her parents live in another city, when she's expecting, who comes to visit at that time, her mom comes to visit, she goes home and stays with their parents for a little bit. That's a time when we provide them even more companionship, when we give them even more accompany

when we surround them with even more love and affection and kindness.

And then imagine at the moment when you need love, and you need family and you need your people the most, you have to isolate yourself.

Imagine how difficult that must be?

What mme is dealing with what when Allah at the end of all of this, and I know I'm just getting ahead of myself. But at the end of all of this and sort of

surah number 66 when Allah says that she is a role model and an example for all believers, that will come throughout the generations, there's a reason for that.

It's woman's willpower, this woman's strength is unbelievable. She's remarkable.

Even men,

we as men cannot even display even an iota of the level of strength and conviction that this woman had.

So this is Marie, and this is who she has. So from fender bender to be mccannon picea to a very, very faraway place. Now,

there's that now there's, there's a little bit of a discussion here. There's a little bit of a discussion as to what was this faraway place that you went to. So there is a large, there's a large number of the vast overwhelming majority of the scholars, whether they be manifested or whether they horn, whether they be historians, or they even be scholars of Tafseer. They say that the name of the place that Maria went to in Arabic is called beta lamb, which is what we call an English, Bethlehem,

the birthplace of Jesus, the birthplace of esala, his center. All right, so she went to this place which at that time was uninhabited, which at that time did not not have people living there. So she goes out to this faraway place. The Quran also describes it, which I'll never know Maria oma who is an instrument me known is number 50. That we made the son of mme and his mother a sign What are we now Houma and we gave them protection. We gave them a place to seek refuge. Isla Rob walked in to a an elevated place that are are in warmer Kenan and it was a place where she would be able to stay where she would be able to settle what my what my excuse me that the Quran or Marina, or Marina and

it was a place that I had water on the surface. Marine basically means a place where water is accessible, where water actually comes up to the surface, whether it be through in the form of a stream or a river or whatever it is a spring, but anytime that water actually comes up through the ground and actually rises to the surface is called married, accessible water. So it was a place where she would feel safe and secure and it was a place where water would be accessible in that

Pretty much what you need. So this was the blessing of Allah

upon medium. So she goes to mccannon Cassie, and she goes to this faraway place. And then that is another little blessing. So while this is very difficult, and this is part of the test under trial of medium that at the time when she needs companionship, when she needs love and care and affection and to be taken care of, to be looked after she's having to go out on our own be in the middle of nowhere and look for after herself and care for herself. In that is another NC This is the other thing. This is this is a problem we have. And I often maybe those of you who have heard me talk here and there a little bit. You probably remember when I talk about the car, I make this emphasis that

too often with the seat all we do this, that we talk about the seat of the profits, a lot of stuff in a very superhero type of fashion. All right, we don't extract the practical life benefits, just the practical things from it. All right, there are so many things in terms of just lifestyle or psychology. All right, just the day to day experience of a human being that we can extract benefits from there. And it validates those things, the presidency, the existence of those things in the life of the messenger validates those things. All right. Same thing with the Quran. The Quran has a lot of these subtleties built into it. All right, one of the number one rules when a woman is expecting

when a woman is pregnant, when the number one rules is that no stress, correct or not. No stress, she says she should not stress over anything and the people around her. The number one emphasis is that you should not stress her out. You should not stress her out. And actually, medically speaking, I'm not qualified, but just through personal experience. I like how he ducked behind any head, I pointed at a doctor and he ducked for cover, all right, so that medically speaking just through personal experience by having babies and children in the families and things like that, that that stress, high levels of stress can cause complications within the pregnancy. So Subhanallah while it

is one form of stress, look at this though the fetal Quran the Quran, where it seems like a form of stress for the woman to kind of go out and it initially did require a lot of conviction on the part of Maria but once he gets here, how does she find the place? It's elevated? What's the point? What's the advantage of elevation? You can see what's around you It gives you a very strategic vantage point that the carotid it's somewhere where you're comfortable staying like yeah, I could stay here for a little bit you know when you say that you sort of settle somewhere very comfortably. I don't mind staying here for a few days. I'm okay over here. Well my training and water and the basic

necessities of life have readily available so Subhana Allah Allah made those arrangements but so even though there's a little bit of stress in terms of she's isolated or she had to leave home, but it saved her from the greater stress would definitely would have been what the slander the gazes, the gossips, the rumor that the people would have spread that would have just killed her that would have eaten or eaten away at her inside. That would have made it difficult for her to sleep. That would have been something she wouldn't have been able to recover from. So Subhanallah we see a lot Samantha's removing distress from Marian.

Now we move on to Sofia homina. To she now is pregnant, she's carrying in front of me and because of the child and the circumstances revolving around the child, the expected child she separates herself in a very very faraway place.

I number 23

Allah says for Agia mahalo

mahalo Illa geezer inocula

God let ya Layton he mid to Camila hada. We're going to know semen sia, very powerful ayah.

So hello, john

Allen mccobb B, I'm going to translate, I'm going to explain the second word what looks like the second word first. Because in translation, we have to that term is going to come first, once we translate it properly, otherwise, it won't sound right in English. So

I called in the in the classical Arabic language that she the root of the word refers to when you have a liquid in a canister. When you have liquid in a canister and you shake it around.

All right, when you shake liquid inside of a container or canister, that's the literal meaning of the word Mahal, the root mclubbe. That's what it refers to. This is used in a figurative sense. This is used metaphorically to refer to the movement of the child inside of the inside the womb of the mother.

The movement of the child inside the womb of the mother and some scholars even referred to the fact that it also also could be repaired.

To the contractions that she starts to experience, the contractions that she's starting to experience.

So and mccobb all right refers possibly also refers to the contractions that she's starting to experience, because she's nearing the birth of the child. Now that you understand that word for Java means that it forced her

means that it forced her, it forced her to go. It forced her to go like Java. And mudgee in the Arabic language

means to go somewhere. It means to go somewhere, a jar. A jar is the transitive form, the transitive form, which means to force someone to go somewhere, to force someone to go somewhere. All right, so now she's being forced to go somewhere. What is the thing that the element that is forcing her to go somewhere?

The movement of the child, the contractions, as she starts to experience, it forces her to get up and start moving around and start looking for something? She's worried now she's nervous now. Right? She's, I mean, this is the first time she's experiencing this. So this is forcing her to move around. And where does it force her to go to Ella towards do their inocula

jewelry in the Arabic language means the trunk, the stump,

the trunk of a tree, and nephila refers to a de Pon. So now this movement of the child, the contractions, they start forcing mme to start moving around and she starts moving towards the trunk of a date palm.

Why the trunk of a date palm, she goes there to lean against it,

to get some support to hold on to something. So at first, like when she starts experiencing in the contractions, it freaks her out. I mean, again, I want to emphasize a human experience here. It freaks her out. She gets nervous, oh, what's going on what's going on? And she jumps up and start moving around. And then when it starts to get very overwhelming. So the first thing she sees, she sees the, the truck, she sees a date palm, so she goes in, she grabs the trunk, she grabs his tree, the date palm and she leans against it. She literally is like, throws herself against it. And she's trying to get support from us. She's trying to catch her breath.

Not just look at her plate, look at her situation. All right, she's going through all of this pain, and all of this difficulty and in this pain, and in this difficulty. She says, Yeah, Layton, he, pilot? She said, Yeah, Layton, he, she has she, she, she, she expresses. She has she expresses sympathy for herself, if you will.

Like just kind of like, Look what's happening to me, look what I'm going through.

Like this is very, very difficult. This is very overwhelming.

What's gonna happen to me? Yeah, lightening me to cover letter.

And then she says, I wish I would have died before all of this.

I wish I would have died before all of this transpired. All of this happened. Now, there's a really profound question that asked here.

How do we reflect on this? She's She's wishing that she was dead.

What does that mean?

So again, you have to judge a person statement, you cannot take something out of context, correct or not? You have to you have to put something in its context. So when we are going to try to read when we are going to try to understand what that means what mme is trying to express, we have to read the IR before it.

We have to read the IR to before it, and what we end up finding from everything we know about money, and we know she's not somebody to back down from a challenge. She's a strong, strong person.

Not just woman, she's a strong human being.

On top of that, we know that the thing that is the most unbearable thing to her in the world, in this entire world. It is this blemish on her decency and her modesty and her chastity. That's the thing that she saved guards after her relationship with the law. And that's actually a part of her relationship with the law is her chastity and her modesty and her decency, or self dignity and respect.

And we know how profoundly how strongly she feels about that. So now that this is going from a pregnancy, to now becoming reality, manifest reality, she's about to give birth to a child. It's happening.

So now she was able to get away for a little bit for the first duration, the beginning duration of the pregnancy. It didn't show she was able to hide it, you know, and then later

On the pregnancy, she was able to get away for a little bit. But now that this child will come into existence, is there any way to hide it anymore? No, there's a living breathing human being? What are you going to do with that?

Where are you going to go with the human being

he's gonna have needs necessities. She's going to be forced to go back and live amongst people.

There's no more hiding this anymore. So now that this is becoming reality,

this is happening. She says mid to qabalah. Haha, because she knows that the slander will come. And I don't want to again get ahead of ourselves here. But there is later on in sort of medium

in this very suit on that. So if you look at I am number 27. I am number 28. The people literally start calling her out. When she shows up with this child. She goes, What did you do?

Oh my god, money on what did you do? What's wrong with you?

Your family, they were good people What happened to you? that exact exactly what happened. So she starts to say I wish I would have taken me up before this.

That that was my feet that was written before this. Because how am I going to deal with that, that slander and those accusations and that blemish, and now it's not just going to affect me she had those concerns of it affecting other people. But now we will affect an innocent child. And we know that there was a segment of the people at that time, who saw Miriam will either Billa as a sinful woman and saw Isa alayhis. Salam ala, God forbid, they saw as Ali Salam as the product of an illicit relationship. There were people who felt that way who thought that and she did not want that to happen to anyone. So that's why she's saying mid to qabalah haha.

And then

we see that she says, we're going to Nexium antiA well couldn't do nasiha Monza and I would have become Nessie and messy and messy. And in the Arabic language comes from the root which means to forget something. It means to forget something, but it's also used as a noun. It can also be used as a noun, messy, messy human. ness human. These are different derivatives nests. Yun Seguin, because Miss Eon is the Jared. But in this mess Eunice Yoon, se Eun, these are all derivatives. And they're used to refer to things that you very easily forget. When especially when somebody is traveling, when you leave your house, they're very easy to forget. All right, like you know, whether it be

maybe just you wanted to take you know your lunch with you. And you always forget your lunch at home. That's then that would be called me CEO, or nephew or niece, you have different derivatives. All right. So that's what it's called things that are forgotten things that are left behind. And that's why the the autumn, they had a figure of speech, they had a saying, an expression that whenever people would begin would travel, the leader of the pack, the leader of the group of people that would be traveling, he would say if Aloo and psycho

and psycho, or they would say Uhuru and Sacco, make sure that you take accounts, make sure that you look out for the things that you will easily forget your staff, or your cop, or your keys or whatever it was for somebody. All right, so don't forget those things, that things that are easily forgotten, make sure that you get them. And so that's what it's referring to here that I wish I would have become something that's just forgotten, easily forgotten.

And then for extra emphasis, she adds a word men see young

men senior,

then not only is it forgotten, but like there's a figure of speech in order. It's the closest thing I could think of, there's a figure of speech in Urdu, that says that when you forget something, sometimes you forget it so bad that you forget forgetting it.

There's this figure speech in there that says like you forget something so bad that you forget the fact that you forgot it. All right. I don't know if that makes any sense in English, but nevertheless, that's a figure of speech. All right. All right. I'm not gonna say it in order to because I think I'm going to butcher it. All right, even though my role is very good. But I'm feeling a lack of confidence right now. So I'm going to stick to what I'm good at right now. Okay. All right. I'm not willing to try my luck here. I don't want an uncle to throw something at me. Okay. So.

So she's saying that make me I wish I would have become something that would have been easily forgotten, and then mansingh and then would become completely wiped from the memory banks of people. Not only would have been easily forgotten,

that people would have had trouble recalling me

But then on top of that, beyond that I've been completely wiped from record wipe from the memory banks of people completely gone as if I didn't even exist, I never even existed.

And the scholars say that more than anything, this is another testament to the dignity, the honor, the distinction, the the modesty and chastity of money,

that she would forego her existence

rather than compromise her modesty and chastity.

And that's something that we need to come back to. But I want to emphasize one thing.

Yes, she has such strong motivations about MOSFET, modesty and chastity. But she has such strong convictions or motivations about modesty and chastity.

And she enforces the standard upon herself. She enforces that standard upon herself. modesty is meant to be self driven, self motivated,

you have to hold yourself to a standard, we can create an environment that facilitates that, that encourages that that inspires that, sure.

But we cannot create a judgmental environment that holds other people to standards. Because what starts happening after a while is then it becomes all about other people, then you don't really care much about yourself. And that predicament I'll give you a very open example. All right, and I'm not saying that there aren't problems on the sister side. But let me give you an example of how this works in our communities and societies. We created a very,

very hypocritical, hypocritical attitude about modesty, chastity,

where it was all the ire of the community, especially from the brothers side was directed at the sister side. They're expected to be modest and chast. So that we don't have to.

They're expected to be modest and chest so that we don't have to. They're expected to be modest and jazz, because that's what Allah wants. And it has nothing to do with man.

That's what Allah wants from them.

If another man never existed in the world, ever again, women would still have to be modest and chest and vice versa. I always ask people to litmus test the question.

If modesty is about other people, when you are at home alone by yourself in the privacy of your own room or your own home, are you aren't you still supposed to be modest? Or getting? Can you be modest? Or do you still have to be modest? Yes or no? Yes. Nobody's there. Why? Because it's you're dealing with a lie. It's your relationship with the lights about how much you respect yourself. It's self esteem, self respect.

And the predicament that we have today is that that that standard at some level, and still, it's way beyond where it's supposed to be. But at some level we are. We have an expectation of the sisters. But on the brother side, so if a sister ever showed up, in modestly dressed, that's it, we'd have a crackdown in the community. There'd be a hood bond to topic, there'd be a new bulletin board put outside

the dress code of the masjid. But on the brother side, we're seeing the situation where the brothers wearing a T shirt that he bought from babygap. You understand what I'm talking about here? When the brother does ruku he's sharing way too much. I'm sorry, brother, I love you for the sake of Allah, but I'm not down with that. All right, you need to keep yourself to yourself. Alright. And then somehow there's not a problem with that.

There's not a problem with that. So modesty is something that is about myself. And Miriam is self imposing this standard is very high standard of modesty. I would rather not exist, that have any blemish on my modesty and my decency and my dignity and my chastity. And that's something we all need to hold ourselves accountable brother or sister, old or young, married or single does not matter. We need to all hold ourselves to the standard of modesty. All right, welcome to nice young man. See ya.

The last thing that I'll point out here is about this. There is something beautiful. There's a long discussion that about this wishing of death, asking for death from Allah, asking death from Allah is, is prohibited.

But there's a specific context to that is prohibited. If it is done out of discontentment with the decision, the decree the power of Allah,

that you are I am so miserable with the way my life is meaning I'm not happy with what Allah has given me. I am so unsatisfied. I am so ungrateful for everything Allah has given to me that I would rather die. That I wish I was dead. That

What is wrong? That is what is wrong. But the prophets a lot he said them to create the balance here the prophets a lot of them has a beautiful supplication and I'll end on this note the prophets a lot of sermons reported to have said this application Allahu macchine makanda to hire to hire only whatever funny mechanical warfare to hire only

Allahumma Heaney mechanical hire to hire only or like keep me alive as long as life is good for me

what was funny but take me up

meaning Take me away from life

Take me away mechanical warfare to hate only when are in the situation that leaving this world is best for me. keep me alive if living is what's best for me. Take me away if that is what's best for me, Mia last panel until I give us all the ability to practice everything that has been said and heard. So Hannah law here will be handy. So Hannah Callahan will be Hambrick. Now shadow Allah in

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